I noticed the first line of my last post...which was several weeks ago. It said I wasn't having a good week. Apparently, this has been a very long week then.It could be the winter blahs...
The overall picture is that I feel like I am spiraling downward. I am in pain constantly, that isn't news, but the pain has increased. My doctor has added a new
medication, but so far it hasn't made a difference. The meds make me tired.I am withdrawing from almost everyone. I have a tendency to do that when I am not well, but there's more to it than that. I am struggling to just get through my days so I am staying away from negative, judgmental, mean, and drama seeking
individuals. I never realized how many of them were out there until now. So my social circle is small, select, and low maintenance. I don't miss the anger and frustration evident in my posts in November and December.However, I have lost interest in doing about everything that I used to enjoy. This blog is one interest that has fallen by the wayside. Walking, knitting, photography, men and many more things.Yes, men too, you can't be more surprised than I am at that revelation.
Is feeling nothing better than feeling angry?
No, this isn't a permanent issue, I believe it is a transition. I think it is an improvement on the stress and anger I experienced in November and December. The frustration and anger are gone. January was a month of self analysis and discovery. February, March and longer are implementation. Remove the negatives, stressors, and fix what is within my control. Yeah, it's a transitional period. Not moving fast enough, but sometimes fast isn't always best, right?
It's been six weeks since I posted. I don't know when I will post again. Just wanted to explain the absence - or try to explain it. I haven't taken a lot of photos, but I will post some for my visual readers (or rather, the photo only readers).
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